Day 22 and 23 were all about weights, measurements and reflection, I wanted to see how far I have come. I have lost a total of 8.4 lbs so far. This is a small victory in the long adventure I have a head of me and I know losing weight does not cure a negative image about my body and my weight does not equal my worth. I am trying to love my body and have a positive image and relationship with it. I am just not happy with being overweight, not healthy, sick all of the time, joints and bones aching because of so much weight on them. My BMI right now is 45 For my height and current weight. That means I am extremely obese for my height. According to a bmi chart I found online my BMI is supposed to be between 19-24 to be a healthy weight. I am supposed to weigh 121 lbs to 158 lbs to be at a  healthy weight. So in order to be on the low end of “healthy” BMI I need to lose 166 lbs and to be on the high end I need to lose approximately 129 pounds. I don’t know how I feel about that I think I would be happy if I lost at least half of what I weigh now which would kind of be in between around 143 to 145 pounds. Hell I am just happy I am losing some right now. The ultimate goal is to lose weight and be healthier and keep up with my kiddo so whatever happens happens but I am trying to be realistic with my ultimate goal. I am not trying to set a number of pounds to lose because I feel it will put to much pressure on me and I just want to be relaxed and have fun with this adventure. I want to learn to love myself and be happy with me and who I am. I don’t want to be the fat girl, I want to change my perspective on how I see myself and how everyone else sees me. I want to become a better version of me. To me beauty should be about being comfortable in your own skin, it should be about knowing and accepting who you are. I am learning a lot of this adventure. When you put your head phones on, tune out the world and walk/run on the treadmill your mind starts to wander and goes deep in thought. You start to learn a lot about yourself and start to learn to love the weird,the quirky, anything, and everything about yourself and your body. You start to appreciate all that your body can do that you didn’t know or thought it couldn’t do. I read somewhere that one step towards a positive body image you should keep a top 10 list of things you like about yourself that aren’t related to how much you weigh or what you look like. Hmmm let’s see

1.  My personality
2. My taste in music
3. My laugh
4. My intelligence
5. My ability to give myself time to heal and recoup when life gets me down
6. My sense of humor
7. My ability to make other people laugh when they need it
8. My willingness to challenge myself
9. My ability to smile even when things get hard
10. My bravery/ the way I  would defend my family against an army with a spoon if it came down to it.

I feel this is a perfect start to loving myself, I feel these are all beautiful qualities I possess. I also need to remind myself that “true beauty” is not simply skin deep… Beauty is a state of mind, not a state of your body. I need to remember to look at myself as a whole person and choose not to focus on specific body parts. I need to surround myself with positive people and positive vibes. I do not need negativity in my life. I need to learn to shut down the voices in my head that tell me my body is not “right” or that I am a “bad” person. I need to have more confidence in myself, my abilities and what me and my body are capable of. I need to stop comparing myself to others and stat focused on me. I love myself because I am a gift nothing would be the same if I didn’t exist.

As I sit here and write this blog entry I can’t help but think about where and who I was awhile ago to how far I have come now here is a few progress pictures.

A little progress each day adds up to big results. Small progress is still progress. I might not be where I want to be but I am not where I used to be. Slow progress is also better than no progress. If you can’t fly then run, if you can’t run then walk, if you can’t walk crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward. Slow steady progress is better than fast, daily excuses. Allow yourself to be proud of yourself and all of the progress you’ve made. Especially the progress that no one else has seen. The secret of change is to focus all of your energy, not on fighting the old, but on building the new. It’s not about perfect, It’s about effort and when you bring that effort every single day. That is  where transformation happens and that is how change occurs. Fitness is not about being better than someone else, it’s about being better than you used to be. I might be a work in progress but every day I get a little bit wiser, a little bit better, and a little bit stronger. Cheers to a better healthier me and I just want to say how proud I am of myself that I am on this adventure and I am taking the steps to becoming a healthier me. Also that I am sticking to making healthier choices and habits, and continuing to go the gym and exercising. Thank you for following and supporting on my adventure to a healthier better me.

-Retro Rebel Girl

 

   

Day 19 and 20 were rest days for me and mostly reflection. I started this adventure because I am overweight and weigh the most I have ever been in my life. I am unhappy with the way I look, unhappy with the way I look in pictures, in clothes, in person, etc. etc. etc. I had no confidence and no self love, I have no acceptance of who I am as a person. I started this adventure because I just wanted to lose weight, be healthier, not having hurting aching bones and joints because I am overweight. I want to be able to keep up with my four year and run after her when I need to with out dying of exhaustion and being over weight. As I sit her and type all this I am not doing it for sympathy or for anyone else. I am doing it for me, I have learned some things about myself and my adventure has helped me to become more self loving. It has taught me to stop hating myself for everything I am not and start loving myself for everything I already am. Because I am strong because I know my weaknesses. I am beautiful because I am aware of my flaws. I am fearless because I learned to recognize illusion from real.I am wise because I learn from my mistakes. I am a lover because I have felt hate and I can laugh because I have known sadness. Self care is not self indulgence. Self care is self respect. Self motivate, push yourself because no one else is going to do it for you. I looked at how I got to be overweight and I saw that I used to bottle my feelings inside and let things that stressed me out get to me. I had to eat, I had to eat a lot of snacks and junk food, I ate because I was board, I ate because I was sad about my weight. I ate because food was comforting to me. I ate because food didn’t judge me. I ate because food didn’t call me fat or fluffy or tell me I needed to lose weight. I ate because food didn’t stress me out. I use/used  food as therapy for my problems. NO FUCKING MORE, GYM IS MY THERAPY, ITS ALSO MY PROBLEM SOLVER. I had to take a hard and truthful look at myself and the self sabotage, and the damage I have been doing to myself. I realized I don’t want to over eat, I don’t want to get any bigger, I don’t want to have a whole hell of a lot of health problems. I want to be there for my daughter, I want to be her HERO. I want to show her that you can do anything you set you mind to. That I am strong, I am beautiful, I am healthy, I am confident, no self hate. I started to eat healthier and no more junk food, sodas, fast food. Its all about healthier options and choices. Some days its not about health or building muscle, its just therapy. Exercise not only changes your body it changes your mind, your attitude and your mood. I exercise because somehow completely exhausting myself is the most relaxing part of my day. I feel calm and sane when I put my headphones on to block out the world and listen to music that helps me heal inside and freaking kill a workout at the gym. On good days I workout, on bad days I work out harder. When it’s just me, my music and the iron.

For us gym addicts and fitness freaks, there’s no better feeling than when we are in the gym and it’s just you, your music and the iron. Few feelings can match that of just being by yourself with your music and the iron! I need to stop caring so much about what people think. Focus on me and on becoming the best version of myself. It’s time to STOP caring about what people think. Cut out the negative people from my life. Focus all my energy on ME and on becoming the very best version of myself. Train harder and work harder until I achieve my goals and focus less on what other people think about me. I know what it feels like to self loath and to be unmotivated. I don’t want to be that anymore. I rather work my ass off until my body says totally no, than giving up on my goals or hunting my dreams! There’s no giving up here! I push hard until I am  DONE. I  don’t give up on my dreams or goals. Ever. That was a little peek into my mind, soul and body.

Day 21 Happy wild workout Wednesday, today is 01/31/18. I killed some fat at the gym today, I was back at it. Today was a new day. Whatever happened yesterday, good or bad doesn’t matter. Dedication, I am hard with myself because failure isn’t an option. Today’s workout started off with the treadmill, I only could do 17 mins and then I felt out of breath so I moved on to the life cycle bike and did 13 minutes. Then I moved on to the lat pull down at 55 lbs I did 5 sets and 8 reps.  Then off to the chest press at 40 lbs for 5 sets and 8 reps. Then the triceps press at 70 lbs  at 10 sets for 10 reps. Then off to the pectoral fly at 55 lbs I could only manage 3 sets at 5 reps. My arms were burning and I just couldn’t push myself to do 2 more sets. ugh. Next time… Then I was off to the hip abduction at 70 lbs for 10 sets and 10 reps each. Then I moved on to the hip adduction machine at 85 lbs at 10 sets x 10 reps. Then I moved to the seated leg press at 85 lbs for 6 sets x 10 reps. Then all my whole body felt like jello and I thought it was time to stop. But I killed it.

 

Your only limit is you, that is why I try to push myself to keep going. I am starting to learn to love myself and my body. I workout because I love my body, not because I hate it. I need to hustle hard, make myself proud, stay positive, have confidence in myself and my abilities, I need to work hard. I will achieve my goals and my dreams. I am just gong to take it one day at a time. I just need to work hard and be proud of what I achieve, small progress is still progress. I need to take care of my body because it is the only place I have to live in.

Here are some progress selfies, not sure if I see any differences yet but I feel some.

Put your heart, mind and soul into even the smallest acts. This is the secret to success. I will leave you with this heartfelt post, until next time.

-Retro Rebel Girl

Day 12 was a rest day for me I guess you could say that I ended up in the emergency room late monday night. I really don’t want to get into it. But they put me on some antibiotics and I am on the mend. So basically days 12-16 were just rest days from exercise and the gym. But I still ate healthy and drank my water.

Day 17 was Saturday 1/27/2018, I like to call it Gettin’ Strong Saturday. It was my first time back in the gym since a week ago exactly. I went on the treadmill for 23 minutes just two minutes shy from my mini goal of 25 minutes. I will get there because slow progress is better than no progress. Then I went to the life cycle bike and did that for 7 mins almost to my mini goal of 10 minutes. Then off to lat pull down I did 5 sets x 10 reps at 55 lbs. Then I did dual pulley double handed rows at 27.5 lbs I did 3 sets x 10 reps. Then I went to the abdominal crunch machine to try some of those and I could only do 1. That is really sad but on the other hand I have a new mini goal to work towards next time we will shoot for 2 or 3. Then it was off to the hp abductor I did 6 sets x 10 reps at 80 lbs. Then I did hip adduction 6 sets x 10 reps at 80 lbs. Then lastly I went to the seated leg press and did a normal stance at 65 lbs I did 5 sets x 10 reps. I was at the gym for roughly an 1 hour and 38 mins. It was a small workout it wasn’t a bad workout because the only bad workout is one that didn’t happen. Here are some progress selfies.

Day 18 is today Sunday 01/28/18, happy shape up Sunday. I woke up this morning I was semi exhausted but I had excess energy I needed to burn off so I decided I needed to the gym again. I actually got the courage to weigh myself again today and to my surprise I lost 5 lbs 8 oz. A small victory on a way to a huge win and healthier me. I was only at the gym for 1 hour and 20 mins it was another small workout but I am working my way back to what I know my body can do. baby steps, slow progress is still better than no progress. I started with the treadmill I only did 21 minutes I was shooting for 25 minutes but it is ok I will get there. Then it was off to the life cycle bike I did 13 minutes I passed my goal of 10 minuets victory now on to 15 minutes next time. I went onto chest press I did 5 sets x 5 reps at 45 lbs. Then I went to the seated leg press at 75 lbs for 10 sets x 10 reps. Lastly I did lat pull downs at 55 lbs I did 5 sets x 5 reps. Then I had to stop my body was telling me no more. At least I got in a little cardio. Cheers to losing 5.8 lbs, here are some more progress selfies.

And yes that is Cruella De Ville on my shirt and the Disney evil villains on my pants.

-Retro Rebel Girl

 

 

 

Day 11 I really wanted to go to the gym today, but I woke up and my body was like nope, no hell no. So what I did instead I ate a healthy breakfast, lunch and dinner. I took my multivitamin and I went on a mini shopping spree on  amazon. Like I said yesterday my headphones died at the gym.  I didn’t have gym/sport/exercise ones I had monster x Gwen Stefani Harajuku Lovers headphones. This is what they looked like:

The cord was always getting stuck when I did certain workouts, but they served their purpose until they just stopped playing the music and died. RIP my favorite headphones. Anyways so I was thinking about getting some wireless ones meant to be used when working out. My husband had bought Jaybird X3 sport wireless in ear headphones in black when we started our fitness adventure last year. He loves them and loves having no cord and they work well at the gym. So I bit the bullet and purchased some for myself I got the Jay Bird X3 in alpha green, because I love green and I didn’t want to mix them up with his. Hope they get here soon. For now I am just using the basic headphones that came with my Galaxy 8 phone. they look like this:

 I am supper super excited, I can’t wait until they get here. I also been wanting a fit bit or something like that. I had mentioned it to my hubby is the tech savvy one out of us. He was actually looking at the Samsung Gear Fit 2 Pro Fitness Watch. It can be linked to our phones, it checks your heart rate and has all kinds of apps and fitness stuff. So we also decided to buy one for each of us they look like this:

 I am also super super excited for my new fitness watch. We also needed more meal prep containers. So I bought some of those to. we got the Fitpacker meal prep containers. It is a pack of 16 containers with lids. they are 28 oz, they were 18.99. This is what they look like:

That is all I got on my mini shopping spree, but I still feel a little accomplished because I bought stuff to help me on my fitness adventure. I wanted to try and continue with my 30 challenges but my body is not letting me, is to sore. Maybe tomorrow we can continue with those. Until next time.

-Retro Rebel Girl

Day 9 was rest day, we ran out of some stuff so we went grocery shopping for some chicken and other healthy food. Also went to GNC to pick up some protein bars for snacks and to curb eating sweets when that sugar rush happens.

Day 10 was Saturday 1/20/18 I went to the gym for about 2 hours and 25 mins. The results you see will highly depend on your discipline in life. Consistency is the key to success. That is why I am trying to make going to the gym every other day or 3-4 times a week a priority. Fitness, Bodybuilding, Crossfit or any other sport is a marathon and not a sprint. And you don’t win a marathon by sprinting for a few minutes and then giving up and success in some of the most meaningful things in life are marathons as well.
Long term success, regardless if it’s in the gym or in life depends on your discipline and how consistent you are. Realize this and incorporate it into your (mental) strategy. Work towards long term success and be mentally prepared to work and train hard every single day. Going to the gym, eating well, sleeping well, thinking positively and being healthy  – every single day – WILL lead to success. Be consistent, never give up and train harder!
That is exactly what I am doing I am choosing healthy options for food, taking my vitamins, and doing what I can to make healthy choices. I have cut out sodas, orange juice which is my favorite thing to drink I used to drink tons and tons now I am drinking it in moderation to cut down on my sugar intake. I have been getting foods that are not processed, no junk food, just healthy organic and foods with ingredients I can pronounce and know exactly what it is.

My goal is to become Strong as fuck, healthy, fit, have lots of energy and be able to keep up with my four year old. Every single day, in the gym – I want to train hard to become stronger. To make those gains. To be better than yesterday. So yes: Strong as fuck – that’s one of my goals for sure. It’s not a question of if, but when I’m going to crush my goals. This quote is ALL about that motivation I have got to have in order to get to where I want to be. That mental attitude and mind set that I need. I AM GOING TO CRUSH MY GOALS. And it’s not a question of if, but when. Well let’s get into my workout, I started off with the treadmill I made it 18 minutes. Still trying to get to my mini goal of 20 minutes I will make it, I will smash it. But for now I am happy I made it to 18 minutes again. I am trying to up it by 5 minutes every time I go to the gym. Then I moved on to the life cycle bike I made it to my mini goal of 10 minutes, so I am shooting for 15 minutes next time. Then I went to the dual pulley pulldown I used 27.5 lbs 5 sets x 10 reps. Then I went to the row machine and did 5 sets x 5 reps at 65 lbs. Then off to the chest press at 35 lbs 6 sets x 5 reps. Then off to the seated leg press I did three different exercises on this machine. The first one I did was a standard stance at 65 lbs for 5 sets x 10 reps. The second exercise I did was wide stance at the 65 lbs 5 sets x 10 reps. The last one I did was standard calve raises at 65 lbs 5 sets x 10 reps. I rest for 10-15 secs between each set. Lastly I went to the hip abductor outer thigh machine at 65 lbs for 5 sets x 10 reps and rested 10-15 seconds in between. After all that I was exhausted and I needed to stop. Don’t stop until you’re insanely fucking proud of yourself. Whatever you are doing, whatever you are working hard and training hard to accomplish. Don’t stop doing it until you are REALLY proud of yourself and what you’ve accomplished. That is how I felt after my workout. I am sad to say though my favorite headphones died half way through my workout. So I had to finish without my music to help motivate me. I love putting my headphones in and listening to music to turn off the world around me.

Here are some progress selfies:

-Retro Rebel Girl

 

Today is all about challenges, I decided I needed something else to help me along on the days I don’t go to the gym. So I  looked up some home based workouts on pintrest I could do and I found some 30 day workout challenges. I started 3 different challenges, the first challenge is called 30 day beach body challenge. Day 1 consisted of 20 jumping jacks,10 sit-ups, 10 squats, and 5 push ups. Then I moved on to the second challenge which is called 30 day abs & squats challenge. Day 1 consisted of 10 sit-ups, 10 crunches and 25 squats. Then I moved on to the last challenge which is 30 day guns, buns & ab challenge. Day 1 is 50 squats, 5 push ups and 25 leg lifts each leg. I accomplished everything except the 50 squats from the guns, buns & abs challenge after 35 squats combined from the first 2 challenges my legs felt like jello. Boy do I feel a lot better now that I did some form of exercise. If you don’t challenge yourself, you will never realize what you can become. A comfort zone is the most dangerous area anyone can stay in. It is a place of no growth and no challenges. If you aren’t willing to work for it. Don’t complain about not having it. Life is going to get hard sometimes, but I already know what giving up feels like, I want to see what happens if I don’t. You haven’t failed until you quit trying, I am not about to quit anymore, I am going to keep going and see where this adventure leads me. It is a slow process but quitting won’t speed it up. It is a long process, I am not going to look out how long it takes, I am going to make daily commitments in order to become better one step at a time. I don’t need a fancy gym, nikes or new sweatpants to exercise all I need is myself and some motivation. Losing weight is hard also being overweight is hard, and I choose my hard, I choose option 1. Be obsessed with your training until you get the results that you want.

You have got to be obsessed in one way or another to truly get the results that matter.
Being obsessed is a good thing (as long as you are making progress of course) – and working hard towards your goals and going beast mode as often as possible is a must to crush them! I just want to be EPIC this year. I want to Make this year – MY YEAR.
I am going to keep on grinding and chasing my goals. Crush them. Make new ones.  I want to keep on improving. I want to be epic in the gym and outside of it.

This year, I want to be the best that I  can be.

-Retro Rebel Girl

 

 

Hey girl hey, yesterday was day 6 and to be honest the only thing healthy I did yesterday was eat healthy clean food. There was no exercise to be had, it wasn’t lack of motivation I can honestly say it was out of pure laziness and my inner fat girl was like girl are you trying to kill us with all this crazy healthy food and exercise. Bitch please you know we are couch potatoes. Sometimes I listen to her and then I regret it, but I am proud to say I ate healthy and no junk food whatsoever. Then I was like girl get yourself together, tomorrow is another day, a new day to start fresh, a new day to eat right, a new day to train hard, a new day to live healthy, a new day to be proud of myself. Which brings us to day 7 on this crazy adventure. So last night I told myself dear fat prepare to die xoxo me. I am going to the gym after to work, I am gonna kick ass and murder my workout. I am going to feel great about my decisions. I am going to be healthy and happy. I freaking got this. Also the only bad workout is the one that didn’t happen so freaking make it happen boss lady and then I packed my gym bag so I could bring it to work with me and go straight to the gym. Because I know if I would have came home to change I would have just stayed home and then the vicious cycle of being unhealthy would continue. I want to break my cycle of bad habits and start making new healthy habits. They say it takes 21 days to make or break a habit. Well cheers here is to day 7 I am a 1/3 of the way there to making healthy habits. I can also be proud I smashed one of my mini goals I passed my 15 mins on the treadmill, I made it to 18 minutes. Small progress is still progress, slow progress is better than no progress. A little progress each day adds up to big results. After the treadmill I tried to make it to 10 minutes on the life cycle bike but only made it to 7:34. I will reach 10 minutes, one day. Then I went to the row machine used 55 lbs ad 5 sets x 5 reps. Oh the burn, tiny bit sore still from Sundays workout but nothing I can’t handle and shook it off. Then on to the chest press, I did 6 sets x 5 reps at 35 lbs ohh more progress I was able to do 5 more pounds than last time. Yay me. Then I did some calve raises on the seated leg press. I used 65 lbs and did 5 sets x 10 reps. I also did a regular stance on the seated leg press to work my upper thighs. I used the same weight and did 5 sets x 10 reps. Last but not least I tried the leg extension machine I did 55 lbs 3 sets x 5 reps. I couldn’t do any more I thing I murdered my legs on the treadmill, life cycle and leg press. I was starting to get the jello feeling, an hour later and I killed my workout for the night. I don’t know why I do some of the same things, I want to do so much more in the gym and I have saved gym workouts but when I get there I blank out. I think I am still embarrassed of being the big fat girl trying to work out. Time to build more confidence in myself. I know I am a work in progress and that I am getting to my goal a little at a time, not all at once. I need to stop beating myself up, I am flawsome, which means I am an individual who embraces my “flaws” and know that I am still freaking awesome.

 

Now for the progress gym selfies:

 

-Retro Rebel Girl

 

   

Hey guys today is day 5 on my fitness adventure and omg the feeling when I woke up so sore I could barely move today. I wanted to go to the gym again but it wasn’t going to happen today. It’s not swagger. I’m just sore as shit from yesterday’s workout. So I don’t have much to report on about my exercise, but I can say I did my measurements today and also weighed myself again to go along with my measurements for a little progress report. Since I started last week I lost 5.8 lbs. Yay for small progress. On the healthy side of things hubby made some meals for meal prep for the next few days. He made chicken broccoli and sweet potatoes. Yummy I also made a few salads for my lunches to I used buttery bliss lettuce with premium cubed boneless ham, two hard boiled eggs and a little bit of feta cheese. I am not really a fan of dressing so no dressing, but they sound delicious just thinking about them lol. I put that into my fitness pal as a personal recipe and it is only 285 calories not to shabby. I also wanted to started a 30 day sit-ups, crunches, and squat challenge. But like I said I am sore as hell and it hurts to move. I guess that means getting fit is working. Maybe I will start that challenge tomorrow, hope I feel less sore. Tomorrow I won’t be able to make it to the gym but I am going to try to do some workouts at home. I have been finding a lot of home body weight work outs on pintrest I have saved to my fitness board as well as some dumbbell exercises. But the dumbbell exercises might have to wait for when the burning soreness in my biceps/triceps/shoulders/chest subsides. lol.

-Retro Rebel Girl

Day 2 of my adventure was kind of a disappointment to me, I really didn’t do much in the working out department, but I still worked on my health I took my daily vitamin in the morning and had a semi healthy breakfast, also a healthy lunch and semi healthy dinner. Hey can’t win them all, went to work for 8 hours, then came home and went grocery shopping for healthy food for me and my little family. I came home dead exhausted and went straight to bed. I was a little disappointed in myself but I am a work in progress. I will beat her, I will train harder, I will eat cleaner. I know her weaknesses I know her strengths, I’ve lost to her before, but not this time she is going down I have the the advantage, because I know her well. She is the old me, this is the new me and I will will be healthier. I’m not losing  weight I’m getting rid of it I have no intention of finding it again.

Day 3  Was a bust in the fitness department, I didn’t have a babysitter but I had a healthy breakfast and lunch win dinner not so much by the time I got home I was exhausted I didn’t feel like cooking and hubby was tired to so we ended up eating pizza. Well I know that was a little stumble, but nothing major to make me quit. I’ve got this be stronger than your strongest excuse.

Which brings us to day 4. Today I woke up even more exhausted and my bones hurt all over and my back was hurting and I was lying in bed making excuse after dumb excuse as why not to go to the gym and then I thought about all the reasons I needed to get off my ass and go smash a workout. I also started to remember all the reasons why I started this fitness adventure. I also started looking up motivational gym/fitness quotes and I looked at a lot long enough to get the determination and motivation to get up get ready and go. So I did it, I went and I made it 1 hour and 5 mins.  Smashed 1 mini goal, I turned 45 mins at the gym to 1 hour 5 mins. I started on the treadmill I made it to 14 mins and 28 secs. BOOM a few steps closer to my mini goal of 20 mins. Then went to the life cycle bike and did 9 mins, just 1 minute away from my mini goal of 10 mins. CLAP CLAP CLAP CLAP. Anna I am so damn proud of you. Then I did some dual pulley pull-downs 3 sets x 8 reps at 27.5 lbs. Then off to the hammer strength mts row 4 sets x 5 reps at 40 lbs. Then off to the seated leg press 6 sets x 10 reps at 60 lbs. Then leg extension 5 sets x 5 reps at 45 lbs and damn did I feel the burn. Last but not least I did chest press 5 sets x 5 reps at 30 lbs and my arms definitely felt the burn. I am soar ugh. Lol not to the shameless before my workout and after my workout selfies. lol

Those are my before my workout and the next ones are my after workout, boy do I look like I smashed the hell out of my workout.

My whole outfit came from torrid active wear, same sneakers from day 1. The headband came from target. They say it takes 21 days to make or break a habit, here is to me making fitness and gym life a life time habit. It will hurt. It will take time, it will require dedication. It will require will power.I will need to make healthy decisions. It requires self sacrifice. I will need to push my body to it’s max. There will be no temptation. But, I promise you, when I reach my goal, it will all be totally worth it.

 I AM ENOUGH

-Retro Rebel Girl

I am taking it one day at time, a little progress each day adds up to big results. So my first day back at the gym I was trying to shoot for a 1 hour workout, but I only ended up up doing 45 mins. But hey I made it back to the gym.

My workout consisted of 12 mins on the treadmill I wanted to do 20 mins but I just couldn’t make it. So I have a new mini goal right now try to get to 20 mins on the treadmill. Set goals, stay quiet about them,smash the shit out of them, clap for your damn self,repeat, compete everyday. Then I headed the the life cycle bike I wanted to do 10 mins minimum but only made it 7 mins. That is goal number 2, don’t worry I will smash the hell out of my mini goals. Winners make goals, losers make excuses. Next I ventured off to the seated leg press I did 5 sets x 5 reps at 40 lbs, with 30 sec rest in between. Then I went to leg extension 5 sets x 5 reps at 40 lbs with 30 secs rest in between and last I did seated leg curl 7 sets x 5 reps at 40 lbs. Then I was exhausted and had to call it quits, but I felt great afterwards. I was very happy with my first day back at the gym. The harder you work for something, the greater you’ll feel when you achieve it. Go me, CLAP CLAP CLAP.

-Retro Rebel Girl